BEYOND THE DREAM - LYRICS
(All lyrics by Harri Kauppinen)




A FOREPLAY FOR THE WOLVES

Light and brightness tied up together
Waiting innocently on the bed to be raped by the night
We are celebrating our birthday like twins
We are brave, scared, wounded and scarred by ourselves

In this night everything that is right is wrong and still so pleasing
In our fight everything that is wrong is right and so comforting
and We have just began, again one of you is part of our game…

Welcome to the dark side of love
Here innocence is decadence and weirdness is a virtue
Here my touch will hurt you, all forbidden is allowed
My dear make yourself comfortable

The doors are closed
The lights are down
your eyes are wide shut while i make you feel my presence
I´ll breath on your skin
Let´s taste the sin
All you have to do is obey
My orders are clear, just obey

There are a few things i want to do
There are things i want from you
two roles in this game so attractive
i am playing both at the same time, i am two
There are a few things i want to do
There are things i want from you
Soon i´ll show you my twisted tools
I am two and you are just one of the fools

Are you ready to suffocate
From this air so endearing for me?
Don´t try to hear…Don´t try to see
It´s easier to suffocate…

there are two in me when thirteen candles are lit
A foreplay for the wolves
there are two in me when thirteen candles are lit
A foreplay for the wolves

A foreplay for the wolves

A foreplay for the wolves

Are you ready to disappear
from the world so cruel to you?
or do you want to hide from me?
Together we could disappear easily…

light and brightness tied up together…
waiting innocently on the bed to be raped by the night.
I am celebrating my birthday like a twin
I am brave, scared, wounded and scarred by myself

…and i have just began

there are two in me when thirteen candles are lit
A foreplay for the wolves
there are two in me when thirteen candles are lit
A foreplay for the wolves

thirteen candles are lit
A foreplay for the wolves

there are two in me
A foreplay for the wolves




YOUR SPIT AS A FLOWER ON THE TOMB IN ME

This place i´ve never seen before
Goes by the name of cruelty
Thunder cracks among black clouds
And the rain reminds me of tears of beauty, you cruel teaser

From foolishness i´ll suffer
Just me alone, my kind of last supper

When no one is here to hear…
When no one is here to share…

No one is here to hear me…
No one is here to share
My thoughts, my dreams i did hide outside of my sleep

Walking on road in thickening night
Where left hands path is right for feeble minded

The sky keeps bleeding above me
While your spit is like the flower on the tomb in me
Your spit as a flower on the tomb in me

Running on road in thickening night
Where left-hand path is right for feeble minded,
Truly blinded and naive

The sky keeps bleeding above me
While your spit is like the flower on the tomb in me
Your spit as a flower on the tomb in me

The story goes on and on
I´ll keep on begging for more and more
This is the way the story writes itself

“What should i do with this,
Would you please tell me…
What should i do when story is writing itself?”

The sky keeps bleeding above me
While your spit is like the flower on the tomb in me
Your spit as a flower on the tomb in me

The sky keeps bleeding above me
While your spit is like the flower on the tomb in me
Your spit as a flower on the tomb in me




YOU ARE THE WATER

This is my world, The world is me
You will deny it, before you see i´ll make you weep
When naive laughter turns into funereal crying in fear,
i am smiling…there´s nobody to wipe away your tears
how to confess your sins in the end when death wins?

whispers form silent lies
dreaded like the devil´s eyes
before your blood stains the sky tonight
i´ll slay myself to know what is right

when i am slain i´ll know what is right

if we´ll throw away these rings
will it end this suffering?
you said every breath i take is sin
remember, there is no god
remember, you can not win

i bring no shelter for your altar when the sky will burn
in flames i am free

so share with me this moment
last we´ll have
learn to breath the smoke or choke
this flame still burns even if you are the water
this moment, last we´ll have
learn to breath the smoke or choke
this flame still burns even if you are the water

you are the water

under ravishing skin
there´s a flesh thirsty for sin
no need to say who´s gonna win
rejected, there is no god
rejected, i will not bring
the shelter for flames
i will not say in vain the names
i don´t want to hail

When naive laughter turns into funereal crying in fear,
i am smiling…there´s nobody to wipe away your tears
the sky will burn before you see it

share with me this moment
last we´ll have
learn to breath the smoke or choke
this flame still burns even if you are the water
this moment, last we´ll have
learn to breath the smoke or choke
this flame still burns even if you are the water




ROTTING LOVERS, WITHERING FLOWERS

That is not fear in my eyes
I just want to see love tonight

Love, safe from the world…
Love, saved, buried

I remember them, i once knew
Two became one, their journey was just began
On the path i would never find but i could find them
At the end of the path i will never find

Here i´m standing bravely above them
Mud on my hands, i am almost there
Here i´m standing bravely above them
With a thousand roses i did bring

Watching proudly, they´re embracing before me
Sweetly rotting lovers on the withering flowers
Man who´s used, abused and without the Muse
Feels himself finally fulfilled
Watching proudly, now they are embracing before me
Maybe i won´t leave them, maybe i will keep them

Maybe i will never lay them into rest again
Disdain was mine, while walking thin line and when
The line ends or bends my way into dark
I´ll be the perfect mark
for them who´ll travel my steps into depths
Here´s no room for tears
but i was weak and i wept

While standing bravely above them
Mud on my hands, i am almost there
Standing bravely above them
Blood on my hands, the same color as the roses i did bring

Watching their bodies, rotting slowly from inside
The expiration dates of them has been long time ago passed by
Still this is the only thing i want to remember!

Watching proudly, they´re embracing before me
Sweetly rotting lovers on the withering flowers,
Man who´s used, abused and without the Muse
Feels himself finally fulfilled
Watching proudly, now they are embracing before me
Maybe i won´t leave them, maybe i will keep them

Maybe i will never lay them into rest again
Disdain was mine, while walking thin line and when
The line ends or bends my way into dark
I´ll be the perfect mark
for them who´ll travel my steps into depths
Here´s no room for tears
but i was weak and i wept




AM I AWAKE?

night, the time for me to be the creature
they are not willing to see…

I´m still breathing even if this feeling is so suffocating
when all is gone being here feels so unreal
surreal dreams, in them…all i see feels so distant to me
all hope is long gone before i was even born
long gone before me

night, my sign to wake up from this coffin
wherein i was sleeping like a child
there innocence was surrounding me
as a lost one without direction or salvation
fact is fiction in my life
i´ll be fine without your lies
or the pity for this poor soul

Those eyes in the mirror
They are not mine
They are opened, mine are closed
Am i awake?
or is this just another night
…another nightmare
…another burden to bear

i won´t change my lies or the truth
or sacrifice all this for you
cause us two are the same as they who were in the garden of fools blindly in love
who tried to be above god
their love was just a proof of their weakness
the legacy they did give us, i´ll give up
here´s my soul, ready to be taken away
don´t mind am i asleep or am i awake

´cause i´m still breathing…

night, my sign to wake up from this coffin
wherein i was sleeping like a child
there innocence was surrounding me
tell me am i awake now!
or is this just another night
…another nightmare
…another burden to bear

I won´t change my lies or the truth
or sacrifice all this for you
cause us two are the same as they who were in the garden of fools blindly in love
who tried to be above god
their love was just a proof of their weakness
the legacy they did give us, i´ll give up
here´s my soul, ready to be taken away
don´t mind am i asleep or am i awake




RED RIVERS

No life, no grief, no more pain inside
The war between the truth and false
i felt in your words you said beneath the stars
addiction like malediction of superstition
in my dark, black and magical way to view the world

in my black and magical way to view the world

living in the lie is like playing the game when the die is cast
at last, i am dancing on the razors edge

my bare feet on the blade
they are bleeding red rivers
when there is no one to hail my name
it will send me down again
my bare feet on the blade
they are bleeding red rivers
when there is no one to hail my name
i will go down in flames

No life, no grief, no more pain inside
The war between the truth and false
i felt in your words
my addiction caused by your malediction
makes me superstitious again

my bare feet on the blade
they are bleeding red rivers
when there is no one to hail my name
it will send me down again
my bare feet on the blade
they are bleeding red rivers
when there is no one to hail my name
i will go down in flames

i will go down in flames

“living in the lie is like playing the game when the die is cast
at last, i am dancing on the razors edge”

my bare feet on the blade
they are bleeding red rivers
when there is no one to hail my name
it will send me down again

my bare feet on the blade
they are bleeding red rivers
when there is no one to hail my name
i will go down in flames

i will go down in flames




DON`T FEAR THE SIN

It´s like disease infecting your mind
It´s like maggots eating you alive
It´s like undertaker setting you into rest
It´s like direction which is always the best
It´s an answer, a seducing dancer
It´s hard to resist
I know you can´t resist

In this season it´s hot, it´s in
Oh baby please don´t fear the sin
There is no way out of this
So, enjoy and slit the useless skin to feel this pleasure
Enjoy and join this needful sin to feel this pain
This pain ain´t just suffering

This pain ain´t just suffering, listen to the wind
It´s lips are moving, love and hate
(it roars the words of love…it whispers softly the poems of hate)
Somewhere there between
The fictive apple you can reach, takes you closer to me
I am the sin

Just suffered loss, former you is lost
Blind eyes can´t see, insentient can not feel
So peel yourself, let the addle matter run out from within

Don´t fear the sin
It´s like denying the meaning of life
Your fear brings their god alive

Don´t fear the sin
It´s like denying the meaning of life
Your fear brings their god alive

It´s like denying the meaning of life

I want to be the kiss you can´t forget
I want to be the bliss before abomination
Regret is my other name, name you are not familiar with
I want to be a wound on your wrist
The door for the way you can´t resist

Forgiveness, my actual fame, shame, you are not familiar with me
I want to be the fact in your mind, the fiction
The alternative ending for your creation

You wretch, you can´t resist me

I am the sin
Just suffered loss, former you is lost
Blind eyes can´t see, insentient can not feel
So peel yourself, let the addle matter run out from within

Don´t fear the sin
It is like denying the meaning of life
Your fear brings their god alive

Don´t fear the sin
It is like denying the meaning of life
Your fear brings their god alive




THE HANDS ON THE HEARTS BEATING NO MORE INTO THE RHYTHM OF OUR LOVE

Somebody said “this spring´s color is white, the white is the new black”
I´d like to stain that white with red, with your blood
´cause it´s like a drug for me and it seals the tomb i´ve buried inside

Once we felt something in our hearts
we were burning…we are still burning
warming our hands upon these hearts beating no more into the rhythm of our love
the hearts beating no more into the rhythm of our love

Somebody said “this spring´s color is red, the red is the new white”

Poet might say “when the flower is growing alone it should be
withered before its first bloom”
What if there is no poetry in our lives anymore?
There is no art in our love anymore

“the paper is still empty…
the canvas is still unpainted”

…life is like a manual for suicide
heart is like a cemetery deep inside
this story is ended before its first chapter is written
this story is ended and the first chapter is forgotten

this night came in white, in black, in red
this night, the perfect bed for the one counting sheep
All this is ours while the world sleeps

Somebody said “this spring´s color is black, the black is the new red”
I´d like to stay in night…
´cause it´s like a drug for me and it seals the tomb i´ve buried inside

Once we felt something in our hearts
we were burning…we are still burning
warming our hands upon these hearts beating no more into the rhythm of our love
the hearts beating no more into the rhythm of our love

This spring´s color should be black…



FOREWORD

They are standing before the higher power
breathing the refreshing air of grace



BEAUTIFUL LITTLE STORM

Firstly i was too blind to see
The burden of power as decease infecting me
Watching the chaos without form
And empty space, the location of the ball

Finally i got something to do

After the five days of creation
There was a time for early form of so called human nature
In paradise under my eyes
`cause soon the playground was ready
Between the sun and the moon

As closed eyes in different lights
Are able to see the shapes you want to see
And the most God did want to see
Was the shape of the man next to the tree
but he was alone, He is so alone still
There was a time for the next form
Now in my beautiful little storm i´ll breath...

I´ll breath the night away
I´ll breath the life in
´cause two will become
One of a kind

I´ll breath the night away
I´ll breath the life in
´cause two will become
One of a kind i hope

After the five days of creation
There was a time for early form of so called human nature
God assumed that man will be followed by woman
That would be perfect, that is perfect
Now he got his playground

As closed eyes in different lights
Are able to see the shapes you want to see
And the most God did want to see
Was the shape of the man next to the tree
but he was alone, He is so alone still
There was a time for the next form
Now in my beautiful little storm i´ll breath...

I´ll breath the night away
I´ll breath the life in
´cause two will become one



AMBASSADOR

Through the burning fire with so called desire
To do the right thing and made it for him
With strong wings in flames with mission and claim
For the prize he´ll earn when he has banished her

She lives beside the man in well made land
Under rules of god added to guide them

In a storm he raised angel keeps looking for her
Through the flames he saw her eyes shining like pearls
She is hard to catch, so hard to catch he screamed
And dreamed about awakening from sleep so deep

His burns also too hard to heal
They´ll remind him
His dream was real

Playing hide and seek she took a time away
From the ambassador of God
While he was lost she knew she must kiss the man as soon as she can
´cause right after that her destiny will be to face
The ambassador of God

In the burning fire so lost in desire
To do the right thing and made it for him
Freewill to find her before he´s found her
Still under god´s command ´cause she knows too much

She lives beside the man in well made land
Under rules of god added to guide them
God whose name she knows

In a storm he raised angel keeps looking for her
Through the flames he saw her eyes shining like pearls
She is hard to catch, so hard to catch he screamed
And dreamed about awakening from sleep so deep

His burns also too hard to heal
They´ll remind him
His dream was real
They are so minimal price
In god´s masterplan

Playing hide and seek she took a time away
From the ambassador of God
While he was lost she knew she must kiss the man as soon as she can
´cause right after that her destiny will be to face
The ambassador of God

Playing hide and seek she took a time away
Playing hide and seek she took a time away
From the ambassador of god



FADING STERN

When spiritless wind blows through the withered Eden poor man stands alone
All the beauty is gone with her love with her smile so fatal but still so adorable

She was his natural born lover
Better half in passion
Hidden and forbidden untainted pearl

Full of secrets, atrocity
Owns gift to know of the name of higher power
But still stays beside the lower
God had plans for them even they prayed

Right time to break up the first dolls ever made

Her heart a cemetery that carries my name
Her smile a tombstone which remains are the same
As her last cold caress while Eden is filled with nothingness

Now i can see only fading stern of your ship
To moving across the sea, fading as your last bitter kiss
Only fading stern of your ship to moving across the sea

First is gone, the second is coming
Right time to feel love within again
But when she can be the one for me
How long it takes

Her heart a cemetery that carries my name
Her smile a tombstone which remains are the same
As her last cold caress while Eden is filled with nothingness

Now i can see only fading stern of your ship
To moving across the sea, fading as your last bitter kiss
Only fading stern of your ship to moving across the sea

no, no don´t go away
Please, no, no don´t go away



MASQUERADE IN EDEN

In the place where everything is fine
In the place where everything is more than fine
Woman beside man just like it was meant to be
They were not willing to see those eyes
The first shadow in paradise

The place of great hope and glory
At the same time so fragile like a feather
That God can blow away
The place so stunning, so unbroken
At the same time so faint
Like a God´s mind ´cause he let it in...

And it took a form of the snake
No legs no arms only poison for unhealed scars
Now they are carried by you

In the place like the end of the rainbow
The party was about to start
The costumes were nudity, leaves and...

Slimy skin, agile moves, wicked tongue, game for own rules
And two fools who believed the one who will lead them into original sin
Even it was day they were not able to see through it´s perfect costume
See through it´s perfect mask

In the place like the end of the rainbow
The party was about to start
The costumes were nudity, leaves and skin...

´cause it took a form of the snake
No legs no arms only poison for unhealed scars

Slimy skin, agile moves, wicked tongue, game for own rules
And two fools who believed the one who will lead them into original sin
Even it was day they were not able to see through...

So get ready for the masquerade in Eden



BLINDED

Temptation as a siren´s voice is calling after man
Like a wind blowing among the branches carrying laughter
Of God who made up this test his best weapon against the man
Was the one who used the tongue between the fangs

The fall and the gates were opened
They were blinded and the short visit was ended

I can feel fear on your skin
I am the rain, I am the wind, I am the air

The sin is made
The swansong for the paradise is written
and it is ready to be sang

They were blinded as god made them
And naked as i saw them
Blinded
They were blinded
...So blind

Your hands on the apple, only one step to the sin
I´m in your mortal soul, once and for all
your thirst, the despair

So weak, she was perfect for me
Her body like a custom-shaped just for me
I was already inside her
When my lies penetrated through that virginal beauty

The sin is made
The swansong for the paradise is written
and it is ready to be sang

Blinded as god made them
And naked as i saw them
Blinded
They were blinded
...So blind

Blinded by the god who made up this test
Blinded by the god who made up this test



BANISHED FROM WONDERLAND

Please give me something i wanna feel
Give me something real
Creatures in my head seem to take hold on me

Stuck in the shadows i´m trying to steal the light away from the day
Together we are stonger than enemies on our way
Trying to break us

One mistake
And the cruel decay was accepted
Drunk on each other they swore...

I´ll hold you every night and day
Our love will not fade away...
With a power in thunder and wrath
They were banished from wonderland

Let me know what do you see when you´re alone in the dark
And your demons are coming, do you see me?
When your demons are coming...do you see me?

Like Lovers, banished from wonderland
Cast out in thunder and wrath

I´m not sure if you trying to kill me
Or are you just stealing my blood
When i see these bitemarks on my skin
I know i love you
I´m in love with you

Stuck in the shadows i´m trying to steal the light away from the day
Together we are stonger than anyone else
who is trying to break us

When you are alone
When your demons are coming...do you see me?

One mistake
And the cruel decay was accepted
Drunk on each other they swore...

I´ll hold you every night and day
Our love will not fade away...



FREEWILL AS A SOUVENIR

Welcome, decadence of the earth
Goodbye, the old innocence of the world

Paradise was passed by
The whole place was dry
And we were thirsty for something new, something forbidden
The world outside is so tempting
While illusion of peace is fading
Oh, something forbidden
But the truth was hidden...

In the test of cruelty
He knows that we are weak
Yes you are abandoned, surely
We know that we are free
Free to choose
Free to live
Free to lose
Free to die and so we will
With our own freewill

If you´ll decide not to listen
I´ll decide not to be here anymore

With you i´ll find my peace, i hope

Even we were building our haven
Our own paradise, safe and sound
Rain kept hitting us down like ravens
Feasting filthy on our rotting bodies screaming the pain out loud...

They did buy you a present
From gift shop of eden
They did bring you
The freewill as a souvenir

They did buy you a present
From gift shop of eden
They did bring you
The freewill as a souvenir

The freewill as a souvenir

Welcome, decadence of the earth
Goodbye, the old innocence of the world

In the map out of eden
We are holding in our hands
X does not point the land
We are looking for

In the test of cruelty
He knows that we are weak
Yes we are abandoned surely
Free to die and so we will
With our own freewill

I´ll decide not to be here anymore

With you i´ll find my peace, i hope

Even we were building our haven
Our own paradise, safe and sound
Rain kept hitting us down like ravens
Feasting filthy on our rotting bodies screaming the pain out loud...

They did buy you a present
From gift shop of eden
They did bring you
The freewill as a souvenir

They did buy you a present
From gift shop of eden
They did bring you
The freewill as a souvenir



LULLABY FOR THE SLEEPING WORLD

I did give them a freewill as an option to choose but what they have done
They have used it so wrong

Now it´s my time to sing my lullaby for this sleeping world
´cause this night will last, and i have not forgot the past

I´ll let my shadow grow in front of the sun
And i´ll name, no more, the man and eve as the chosen ones

There is no god
I can tell
The heaven we believed in is worse than hell
There is no god
No god for us

There is no god
No god for us



...THERE MY HEART SHOULD BE

Feeble as we are and as we were before
Where the mistake was made
When the apple was eaten by those who did not fight against the evil
don´t be sorry and do not worry

´cause the God will paint you out of the picture for sure

Fable is the lie which told i'll try to care about you
To care about who does the right or wrong
His children are dead and their offspring in bed
Did a sin after sin

Now the god is painting them out of the picture...

In his heart he loved them too much
but was not allowed to touch
´cause he is not part of their world anymore
of his own greatest creation

Buried six feet under there my heart should be
As he told before cold wind filled his mouth and made him mute

I said i´ll drink that weakness away
Just pour me the blood from your heart

Fable is the lie which told i'll try to care about you
To care about who does the right or wrong

God is painting them out of the picture
Of his own greatest creation

Buried six feet under there my heart should be
As he told before cold wind filled his mouth and made him mute

...Sweetly buried in six feet under ground



MENTAL IMAGE ON FEAR

I see things in my mind
I can not stop wondering why
I hear things in my head
No forgiveness from god
No regret from me

It´s dark, still i see you there
This fear that everything is gone
Reminds me on you everywhere
It´s dark, still i see you there
I´m used, abused and played by god
Who did not listen what we claimed

Is my faith in nothing able to save me
Is my faith in nothing able to lift me higher
...lift me above all this
...while my love to god is dying

Meanwhile the nature is crying
This fear is tearing our souls into pieces
After all i will die, too
Would you still believe in me
And stay with me when we are not as one no more
´cause After all i will die beside my so called god

I will keep myself busy with picturing our doom
I will keep myself busy with picturing our doom

When we make love with no regret
This world is like burning bed for us
As the sinners we are
The sinners we are

It´s dark, still i see you there
I´m used, abused and played by god
Who did not listen

The nature is crying
This fear is tearing our souls into pieces
After all i will die too
would you still believe in me
And stay with me when we are not as one no more
´cause After all i will die beside my so called god

I will keep myself busy with picturing our doom
I will keep myself busy with picturing our doom



ENGAGED WITH THE WIND

one, love
two, hate
three, angel
four, demon
five, paradise
six, six, six

Like they did
Prepair yourselves for the freefall from heaven

They said "we fear the inferno which we are heading to..."
Don´t worry my child, you are much deeper than a hell you know
You are heading to your grace
Your salvation your place of inner peace...

Hatred is engaged with the wind
And it´s blowing all this away



WHEN MAN EXISTS NO MORE

It´s true i do hold the master key to sinful hearts
They´ll replace the juries while saints are locked in
Asylums and penitentaries

When this court is over man will no longer exist
As a content of this world
`cause i demand - the so called walls
Between these two worlds are condemned
Just like i recommend before
Just like i recommend before

No time to smile, it is worth nothing
The only right time to cry, it is worth something

You are dismissed so take your leave
Fear and all this will hurt you
A shooting star in god´s greatest failure

Dismiss, say your goodbyes to all this

Fool, feel the sin against you...
The sin against the sinners
Satan and his whores will have their score
When man exists no more
When man exists no more

Now when you are gone
I have no mercy on your soul
A shooting star in god´s greatest failure

You are dismissed, say your goodbyes to all this
Or beg for more, more and more

Fool, feel the sin against you...
The sin against the sinners
Satan and his whores will have their score
When man exists no more
When man exists no more

Fool, feel the sin against you...
The sin against the sinners

The sin against the sinners

The sin against the sinners

When man exists no more

Ever after there is a light
My light, Light that illuminates nothing...
My vision of a new day is rising
And this all will start again...

...And they are standing before the new higher power
Breathing the choking smoke of forthcoming fire wall



PROMISE (opening)

In the beginning...
God promised to Me
That My life would be My paradise
...So far it´s been Nothing but the Hell in disguice



SNAKES AND ONE HEART

I´m the one who survived
From the daylight into nightmare
Oh, can You be My savior
In this endless and sleepless night in time
when I can´t be the prayer
Just hold My hand and be Mine

I´m hiding behind disguise
That s why I´m lost and blind in My paradise
I´ m living My ideal life
That´s why My judgement is to live behind daylight

I grew up in a place where light use to stay
Oh God, I swear it was heaven to Me
Now My mind is like the mind of a werewolf
I want to kill it what I love most

I know who I am but who are You
The silhouette of My bitter deja vu

The prisoner without jail
The bride without veil
Two against My heart
Snakes and one heart

I´m the one who has survived so far
From the pressure of snakes with one pure heart
I can´t never realize how much it will cost
That´s why My paradise is lost



MY CRADLE

Oh, there was a time
when I reached the sky and You were only Mine
Now is the time when You tell Me only lies
I know now is the time
when You leave Me and I m a child again

You make Me face My first day alone
I can´t handle it
You make Me build the shelter above Me for cupid
´Cause everytime when I cured My heart
You took another piece away

I remember You and Your hand that rocks My cradle
´Cause You were the reason for My failure
Your hand that rocks My cradle
Because of You My heart is so pale

I will not survive from the labyrinth of Your heart
Tonight I´m not sure when I finally face the light

Please share Your kiss with Me in this abyss
Now after midnight it´s raining outside
You re laying on a floor
and I feel I want to die for you

I let this be My sacred prey on My secret path through the time

When all the flowers that You gave me died
In that time it´s easy to cry but so hard to smile
And after all, I rebuild My shelter for cupid
I was stupid
But when I can love again

I still remember You...



SHE WANTS MORE

Fear...My body is shaking
My head is aching
My tears are falling
Shame...My mind is collapsing
She was My score

I´m in this weird place
I know I´m so unsafe
They keep on asking for so much more
I think I´ve been there before

After absinthe
My mind was blank
Now My heart is colder than winter
...Flashback

I was there between the Adam and Eve
I was third wheel in the garden of Eden
I was the snake in Paradise
I was the reason for lust in Eve´s eyes

´Cause She wants more
And I knew She wants more

Tears...Are falling from My eyes
They will undress My ice-cold disguise

They´ll uncover My heart
2000 years are far away from the time
when Our kiss became a scar (of mankind)

I´m in this weird place
I know I´m safe
but They keep on asking for So much more
They know I´m here...On and on

After absinthe My mind was blank
That makes Me shift through this all
...All once more

´Cause I was there...
Lies are easy to bear
´cause I was there.



LONELINESS, THE USUAL PAIN

Every night when I close My eyes
I think I´ll never face so much lies that I´ve faced
Loneliness, the usual pain
I´m so far away from grace
´Cause You never embraced Me

When I´m alone...I remember that part of Me grew inside You
When I´m alone...I remember that part of Me died inside You
I´m afraid...threaten by the empty walls around Me
I´m so afraid...threaten by the dirty thoughs inside

Just yesterday...You said You´ll love Me forever and I believed
Just yesterday...I saw You laughing but You laughed at Me

Mind and heart betrayed and used by love
Lies against trust ´til death do Us apart

You lay beside Me but it feels like I´m alone
You put Your arms around Me but it feels not the same anymore

Abandoned, unborn...is Our love and the fruit of it
Abhorred, buried...That s Me, insipid

...And while I sleep I m with You
And the sweet unborn child of Mine.



THE VOW

On this road...
if You stay with Me I´ll promise
that You´ll never be alone
´Cause with this ring I ask You to be Mine

I do

Beyond that road...
I´´ll stay with You
and I´ll always light Your way in darkness
´Cause with this ring I ask You to be Mine

I do



PRETADOR´S BRIDE

When I saw Your emerald eyes
First time in My life
The sweat filled My own eyes
When I touched You for the first time
Now My heart is beating the rhythm for Your funeral song
The same song was the tune for Your happiness

The song in Your wedding
When hell was above Us
When You said "I do"
When I prayed for forgiveness

This is Me poisoned by the deadly spider
While You´re the predator s bride
You use to worship the black side of sky
and tear Our love away from Our sight

I keep on dreaming, hoping, praying without You

I use to put My trust in You
but Your heart was like the wickerman for unholy god
Until today...I saw You hanging from the roof
like an unpainted portrait on a wall
Why You gave Yourself away
Why You gave Your life away

For the love that makes You bleed
Now hell is above Us
You said "I do" I prayed and now I regret

Now...You may kiss the bride.



THE PLACE IN HEAVEN (or palace in Hell)

I remember those days
and the holy serenades and Your golden age
When those fools believed
that Your light can cover the shadows of night
but one weak mind in the fear so blind
The truth was hard to find
That blind trust became the kiss of a betrayal

He is searching the truth forever
The place in heaven or palace in hell
After sundown He and noose together
far away from the place in heaven

You say "I don´t believe what I see"
But there is no one else who I can be
Cause there is so much to do with His reasons
To be somebody else and see You have to disagree with life
and survive those four different seasons

On and on...year by year...
on and on...tear by tear...

The looking glass tells
the beauty is just an illusion
When You ll face the truth You will cry
The same tears that I´ve cried

I´m in Your mind to stop His second coming
That will raise Me to the top
And when You stop loving
the golden gate is sealed up

I remember those days and the separated ways
Where You walked with Your people
and I´m sure I was not alone
When I felt the heat
the great burning of Rome...

It´s His truth forever
His place in heaven or palace in hell
After sundown His town together with flames
far away from the place in heaven.